Daripada nangkring di arsip blog w yang udah 2 bulan, mending kita post aja.
So, telling about something that I wanna talk about is the way that I like the most.
Most important things that I wanna share w/ u gengs is the way that I ruin myself w/ my own journey. On my own, I love doing what I wanted to.
Like,
I love being myself. I hate pretending but in every journey for every people, meeting w/ other people sometimes we have to pretend ourself when communication w/ others. But, now, I think, it becomes more grateful for me cause I don't have to make a lot of pressure if I have to pretend myself. If I wanna talk to other people around me (for now), i think, it might be because they're men and I think it's easy to them for not being a brittle person.
Pretending is a must, u can't just think about yourself, u have to think to other people's feeling. Don't be selfish cause in ur world isn't full of urself. Don't be mad at the simple problem, u know, big problem sometimes we have to think about how to simplify it, and then if u mad cause the little problem such as u are offended by people around u especially one of my friends, dahlah.
One of my friends told me, "Coba kapan kamu emosi Ca, kasih tau saya. Tak coba nya. Kamu ga pernah marah sama saya soalnya."
I mean, I did. I did mad at him. But I can't mad with shouting like rude words or just be quite for so long, I just can't. So, he wouldn't know. If I am mad, the first thing is my emotions really increased, but Alhamdulillah, isn't going for too long, I don't know but I think my emotions are really under control. If u ask "how to" I can't tell u, that's really hard to explain how I can manage my emotions. I just let it flow. I don't know how my emotions really going, is that bad or good I still don't know, but, I feel like I'm grateful with this.
That's how I can manage my emotions especially mad one.
If I'm baffled or bewildered maybe stressed, I'm just going to convenient store, get the Ice Cream and now mostly everyday I buy that one dessert without lunch first. Is there a thing that I'm stressed mostly everyday? I think so, but I'm so relieved that I just buy an Ice Cream not other something bad. In the middle of my stress, there's a lot of something special that I've got.
Sometimes, when I want that Ice cream, I'll try to Invite Caca, she's my partner's work daughter. "Ca, ayo beli Ice Cream", she's very excited when I told her to bought that dessert. When I see her smile, I'm excited too. And the unexpected moment was, recently Caca and her dad go outside, I don't know where the destination was, but when they comeback, she gave me an Ice Cream too. I never talk to her what the Ice Cream that I love, but when her dad told me, "Caca bilang, "Mba Ica suka Ice Cream nya yang itu", I really shocked when he told me that statement. Caca is 3rd years old. But she actually know what Ice Cream that I frequently buy. Again, I never told Caca what type of Ice Cream that I like. But Caca know really well.
And the other special things that I've got too.
Like this one,
Coffee?